SATAN’S ARRIVAL

Bombed, raped us again and again,

tearing apart innocent lives, taking their breath away.

 Terrorized our lands where we dwell.

 and left dead bodies to smell.

And we call this a free country ?

In blood, sweat and tears,

 we were.

We ran for our dear life’s.

Falling from our grace.

Tumbling over our pride.

 We are nothing but captive fools.

And we’re about to break.

We’re so consumed with how much we get.

 We are getting dirty, with the people spreading the dirt.

 All the things we thought we could be, and the dreams we saw, have fallen.

Disguised Satan’s, decided the fate of our lives.

Riped-off, life from the streets, and left, for us to put it back in place.

 We are nothing, but trying to live, like blind men.

 When we were full of anger, full of might.

 We, opposed when we lost it. we, talked when we thought about it.

 we, wept when we felt it.

When, old we left it.

 Just wasted our time in hate and regrets.

 We thought the sun will shine and it rained. But, Did we even feel the pain?

We’re just stone-cold men.

 And we call ourselves unbreakable ?

Wounds so deep, the time cannot erase all of this.

 There ain’t a single lesson we’ve learnt,

ain’t a single stone that we’ve turned.

 We all suffered the same.

But now, we’re just placing the blames.

 And we’re calling ourselves innocent.

 In blood, sweat and tears, we were.

We ran for our dear life’s.

Falling from our grace.

 Tumbling over our pride.

We’ll always be captive fools.

And we’re about to break.

—–ABHIJEET GOLE

PRISONERS OF WAR???

 Before me n ppl in mumbai  forget the terrorist attack on 26 th nov  it was important for me to write tis  blog …. I was a proud Indian before tht … but yaa I WAS …   …. The horrific conditions ppl of my country stays in ……  its been few days n I have been haunted by   thngs I  never thght of earlier …. 

  Everyday whn I read the newspaper I m shocked to c the  eroding  sensitivity  of mumbaities ……   

 Whn I go to college  I m so scared to travel  i represent  the citizens who  is scared to travel in trains scared to trust ne1 … scared whn thy c som1 wid heavy luggage …. Scared to even help some1 …..  ….

 Thy say  Mumbai has a spirit wch wud never die  but  I guess it is dyin a slow death  I potray a citizen who  wud rather  go to western countries n settle coz he is so damn scared ….   Cowardness  is slowly creeping in ….  Its lik  India is sitting on a time bomb …… but frankly tis 1 incident was to provoke us to do somethng   … do somethng wrong  like the US  did  whn Taliban attacked  the twin tower ….    US attacked afganistan  n killed 1000s of civilians….  Wch made more terrorist ….   U kill 1 bin laben n next wud b ready to take the throne ….   Thy all r waitin to b jehadis  n gain 1 way ticket to jannat …… 

 We all r prisorners  in our  own country wch cud nt  provide simple  thngs lik food clothin n shelter  to its childrens ….. I feel sick inside  whn I c  kids beggin ….. wht  does the  future lies  whn  the future itself is naked n  cannt even  afford 1 square meal a day ……. Wht kind of superpower will India b … no 1 knws ….

  It’s the bloody corruption  in every strata of our society …………..  india is a rich country wid poor ppl in it

 Only thng I m proud of  tis country is  the defense system  wch again  is ruled by corrupt politicians ….  But the reason y we cud live a life the way we do widout caring bout others is coz of the  defense system of the country n no damn politician has the right to give derogatory remarks ….. ppl  lik kerala CM  shud b shot …..

  Hope revolution arises frm tis episode n we don jus sit n crib bout the whole system  I pledge to fight for it ….n nt b a victim nemore  coz I wan to b free …. Freedom to say NO  to terrorism ,  freedom to say NO  to corrupt politicians ……. Its  time to rise …..

 

WAR WITHIN II

I got up tis morning n asked my mom  “  do u look bak at life n analyze wht u have acheived  or have u done all the thngs u always wanted to do …  ” i asked tis because whn i ask tis question to myself i feel i m stuck  somewhere  have been doin the same thng all my life  every single  day is not a new day for me …..  my life is a roller coster ride by other peoples perception …. thy c it as n interesting n adventurous life …. but y do i  feel so frustrated n bored all the time…. m i cravin for more adventure in my life ….. mayb i get bored coz i have a simple life rite now … most of teh time is spend in  travelling n college…….

 life teaches u lesson every single day but its upon us to interprete it correctly …. i donno if i m learning correct lessons from my life … or mayb it is like m interpreting my lessons in a wrong way ….

 wat if i learn all teh lessons n thnk i m always right whn suddendly life  teaches u different lesson …….i donno wat is right n wat is wrong …… people say follow ur instinct but my instinct seems to have died …. it cannt trust people …… i can love some1 but not trust thm.. its bcoz i knw a person can do nethng its like a scorpio will always bite coz its his nature to bite ….. so is it a human nature to betray  or to hurt some1 else ….can we even trust ourselves ???

whn i look bak at life i feel i have done all the wrong thngs in life  or taken wrong steps ….. but thn i don regret it i donno y ??? i have done thngs whn i myself knw thy r wrong but i did coz i jus wanted to feel how it is like to b doin all wrong thngs ………. thngs like pataving the wrong guy even though i knw it will go all wrong only to c how it feels coz  for me its ok to b wrong thn to cribe n think  kash maine life main yeh kiya hota ….. but i have paid a heavy price for doing all tht ….. still i knw i will stay like tis all my life coz this is me  m glad i wont change even if its been tough to b me

A WAR WITHIN

 Everyday i get up i exactly knw how my day wud wrap up … by doing absolutely nothing … its the same routine everyday ..  n i m bored wid myself now … tis boredom is soon turning into frustration …..  my daily routine is  getup  watch tv  cook somthng for myself  turn on teh computer check my mails or jus delete thm widout readin …comparing guys on facebook jus over n over again ….. thn call up few friends n discuss how frustrating  we r in our lives …… 

we cry over how we r slipping into depression …..  we crib n crib …… we appear for our exams n  tell our frds 40 mila toh chalega  n whn  u get 60 u r unhappy …..   we r like a man who wants to reach a  hilltop but is told  u will find strong winds n landslides n the road der is dangerous we go alll prepared for teh worst n whn we reach the hilltop  the worst has nt come n u realise it never will  but instead of being happy u r sad … coz u expected the worst from urself ………. we r the architect of our own dismay …. we love  self pity …..  every man does …  no body can ever satisfy n ever understand wat he wants  its like the  WAR  we r against ourselves

KAL – YESTERDAY N 2MOROW

Just thnk about tis for how many times have u done somethng in ur past tht u werent too happy about? it cud b nethng perhaps u have tried to start ur own business or create somethng in ur  life u r passionate bout  but failed so u gave up … it doesnt really matter . but everytime u turn around u r falling victim to the same thng over n over again … it happens we all fall down but the good thng about it is v get up . just because u fell down doesnt mean you stay down …. GET UP !!

    There is no point in sitting der  we all make mistakes . bt the  gr8 part about it is god allows us an oppurtunity to learn from our mistakes  and move forward  … no matter wht circumstances are in ur life tht might have tripped u up , no matter wht u have been thru , no matter wht happened in ur past  , u can always get up and make changes ….

 ”A SAINT IS JUS A SINNER WHO FELL DOWN AND GOT UP ” get up  dont live in the past ! ur past shud b ur refrence point , nt a residence . but so many of us continuosly live in our past ….. n thn mayb in ur future too … n always crib on wht v dont have …YUN HOTA TOH KYA HOTA………..

 LIFE  is just the present  .. just bcoz u made a mistake  or circumstances led u to do somethng tht u can now regret , downt mean tht for rest of ur life you will have to beat urself up bcoz of it … doesnt matter if u have made 2 mistakes or millions in ur life  wht matters is today , right now .. no KAL  NO YESTERDAY NO 2MORRW ……

 What we all have to learn is  v arent born for sorrow . v werent born to b a doormat for others to wipe der feets on  you  . u werent born to b used up n disregarded . u r born to glorify ur life  live happy n abundant life  now is the time to get  up n start livin the life  tht u r born to live  , and tht is a  life of purpose …….. thts a life of  happiness n abundance…….

Nw u ask’ HW DO I GET OUT OF PAST N GET UP ?  well i wud like to say its simple  but tht wudnt b the truth . ders nthing simple bout it . it is a daily process  tht u must work on  … you have to b committed to make chamges in ur life .. ……… u must have faith in ur self  tht 1 day u will change it n work on it hard  u will have to realise tht wht happened yest is gone .  u can never get tht time back n derfore der is nthing u can do bout it  ……… But rite in front of u is nether minute  , nether hour nether day , nether week , month  n year  ………..

Start by telling urself , over n over again “MY PAST HAS NO BEARING ON WHO I M RIGHT NOW . AND DRFORE IT IS NT IMPORTANT … I M HERE TO GLORIFY MY LIFE  N I M WORTHY OF GOOD THNGS IN LIFE “

 if u take tis simple phrase n say it again n again to urself u will start seeing changes   n der will b 1 point  where all of sudden u will pack ur old baggage  from the past n move to a closet ttht u will lock n throw  away the key…… n once u move on u will c a completly diff house n a new neighbourhood  1 tht is completely diff u used to live in…………

 so jus take 1 step at a time n we all can move on even wid the hardest thngs in life ….. coz life is all bout movin on

WHTS UR TYPE ?

Its for all those gals who have dated such ppl n find it difficult to carry on a relationship . …. so tis blog is for all those guys n gals who wan to figure out wat went wrong ………..

This is quite weird but most gals like to date guys who have the ‘bad boy’ image …. now i tell u y………. coz thy like der life to b like a roller coaster 1 not a simple day to day life ……….. adventure is all we want ……. thts y i guess y monica bedi was involved wid abu salem .. ahemmm ……… well being wid such guys gives thm a certain high in life ……… n u c thts y saas babu soaps r so widely watched coz the turth is we like negativety ………… n yes we all shud b ashamed of tis fact but as a gal i kwn its true………. but gals if u r in such a relationship u will wan to get out of it but wont b able to coz the time u thnk of leavin tht person he will start pamperin u n u will feeel he is changed n all bullshit ……… ..

nether type of guys who i personally hate dating is mammas boy ….. these guys usually don have lot of guts but wud show off a lot of emotions …. thy can pretend very well ………… now if u wan to knw if tis kind of guy is serious wid u ,all u will have to do is press his panic button wch is the word ” marraige” lolzzz this is fun belivee me the moment he feels u wan to marry him he will start talkin thngs lik my parents wont agreee n stuff lik tht ………….

now der r guys who r completely control freaks … the controlling behaviour takes root whn a partner is afraid of vulnerability and wants life to b predictable …… thus thy r mostly attracted to ppl who r generous n caring who will take care of thm n worship thm ………… thy wud usually keep unreasonable demands n if its nt fulfilled get ready for mental torture ……….. best way to get out of it is don put urself before thm n show thm u love urself more thn u lov thm………..

if ne of u guys find a diff species plzz feel free to comment here …………. last but nt the least my personal fav ……… a mix of bad boy who pampers me ………… possessive but gives me my space ………………….some1 who loves his family but yet independent n have a mind of his own …………… mayb tis type don exist lolzzzzz

have a nice day

Purvi

being good is not good enough!!!!!!!!!!!

“Being good is not good enough ” this is wht my teacher said me once when i was in my 10 std coz i was wasting my time by helpin others ……. this phrase went wid me all along n taught me a lot …….. which made me tough from inside but somewhere down the line i become as i was some few yrs back ……..getting hurt when i fought wid a friend is somethng quite natural ……….. but i have been hurtin myself quite often this days ………

ppl say u get hurt coz u have expectation from ppl around u …….. n its natural to keep expectation frm ppl u have been so long n so tht means gettin hurt quite often will b natural tooo….

jus 2 days bak i had a terrible time wid a friend (he is nt a frd nemore)………. tht says it all v had a long fight it was the first ever fight between us n it blow out of proportion but thn somehow i thought it was my mistake coz i get so emotional wid my frds n stupidly go on makin best frds ………….. widout actually understandin ders no 1 who will b wid u whn u need thm most ……. whn u need a frd someday der will b some1 today n somebody else the next day .. tis is how life goes on ……… whn u r in school u have some very good frds as soon as u join college thy get busy n thn u lose contact n 1 fine day u meet thm at some social networkin site ………. n this thngs goes on n on ……….

few things i learnt dis days is 1) keep a carefree attitude , do wht u like n duniya gayi tel lene

2)jo jaisa hain uske saath aisa hi rehne ka

3)life main kissiko bhi jyada importance nahin dene ka

4) friendhsip is for namesake u make frds so tht u can get some help frm thm n thy can get some help frm u

5)in tht case if some 1 is makin ur life difficult u make his life difficult too …. don jus sit n cry

6) believe in no 1 but only u

allll this is gyan given to me by some ppl around me all this points above point out to me to b selfish which is not at all difficult n i thnk i will enjoi my new phase in life ……. lets c how well it goes ………… but i wud wan to thank few ppl in my life coz thy were nvr selfish to me n so i will nvr b selfish to thm n i knw thy mean friends to me for life …………

LOVE V/S LOVE

y r relationship so confusing , well m nt here to bore u on soem stupid love story . stupid? ya i mean rite m so bugged up wid ppl around me n der stupid love stories . y the hell r thy makin life difficult to live in ……………..  its always rite whn ppl say u shud listen to ur instinct , ur heart nvr goes wrong but thn y do u heart takes u to the same person who gives u humiliation , embarassment , n teh most important thng u lose ur peace of mind

like a frd of mine called me up n said plz don give my phone nos to ne not to our classmates whn i asked her y she said she needs peace of mind wan to b in hibernation … …. babez u need peace frm ur boyfrd . m rite ur over possessive boyfrd who don wan u to mingle wid  ur frds

der is tis frd who wants to go out on a date wid me but is already carryin on wid a gal n feels guilty for goin on a date wid me…………….. coz he doesnt wants to hide ne thng frm his gf but still wants to go on a date n enjoi his life like all his frds do . now tis is soemthng whn i thnk its better to b single thn feeling guilty bout hidin such thngs from ur partner..  ………. sometimes i feel u shud give freedom to ur partner but thn holdin soemthng too lightly can get thm out of ur hand n holdin too tightly can  break teh relationship…………… so wht to do exactly whn u r so much in love n tryin hard not to make ne mistakes

most ppl will agree wid me on this issue n will want to find the answer to all this but thn even i don have n answer to all this.. i have been into two failed relatioship …….. n its preety easier to give advice to ppl but whn it comes to ur own self u lose ur confidence ……….. i had always been a very confident gal n was ready to run wid other ppl in this fast lane but suddendly i lost teh grip n forget runnin it was difficult to stand on my feet too . i lost my confidence  n m still tryin to gain tht bak…………n have made up my mind not to fall into such games again yes love is nthin but all bout mind games…….. so stay away frm it n enjoi……….. sayonara

DARKNET : THE INTERNET U DIDN’T KNOW ABOUT

There’s a problem with teh internet today . it is awfully claustophobiac and infested by control freaks. governments that surreptitiously keep track of every website you visit. offices that insist on controlling every bit of information you download. and service providers at home that fancy themselves as the moral police.
For the reason alone , it makes sense to explore the internet underground . geeks call it the darknet -a part of the internet that remains unseen , undetected and completely below the radar. this story is definative primer on the darknet . because entry to the darknet is by invitation only . this story only attempts to tell u on its existence and lead the way to some entry points . what u make of it and how u use it is entirely up to u.

BRIEF HISTORY-
If u access the internet, chances are , at some point in time , u my have download music off it . there is one man you have to thank for that . Justin Frankel, the underground software rock star of the internet. at 18 , he created Winamp- for all practical purposes
Those days , it impressed american online (AOL) – then the largest internet services (ISP) in the US so much that they paid Frankel $100 million to buy the software and a promise from him to develop it further . it didnt take him too long to hate it . in a brilliant attempt to snub the system he worked for , he created Gnutella – a software client that lets people trade music online- and put it up for the world to use on AOL website Gnutella allowed people to connect to each other directly . it works like this . assume that u and i have gnutella loaded on our computer . once we connect to the internet , you can see what music i have on my machine . if you like , you can dowload it off my terminal , so long as i am online
An appaled AOL tried to pull the rug from under gnutella feet by pulling the software off its website . by then it was too late . Over 10,000 enthusiasts had downloaded it on the very first day and it spread like wildfire FRANKEL later created another software WASTE . AOL sacked Frankel and pulled WATSE off their website . but it still hasnt stopped the darknet

FINDING THE DARKNET
Gaining an entry into one of these network takes some amount of digging around . to start wid , try somethng like GROUPER on www.grouper.com. it is a piece of software that maintains a directory of various darkent groups . der r over 1 lakh that grouper knows of .

closer home ders krawler network (www.krawlerx.com) led by shashank dixit , a graduate from IIT kanpur , once u download a tiny piece of software , it allows you to share content, search desktop of those on your network , email and chat wid thm . gaining access however , continuos to be a problem on krawler . unless soembody using it invites you into teh network.
meanwhile do yourself a favour . cry freedom …..